Excuse My Rant, But… Hypothetically Speaking…

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You know, life is really crazy. Crazy how things happen.

 

For instance, how you can be completely and totally in love with someone. And I mean LOVE. As in they have flaws you NEVER thought you could accept on anyone else… but with them there’s just something to where they’re the only exception. And you dress up for them and text them when you know something is coming up in their life or when you want to just talk. And you worry and care about them. And want to always help in whatever way possible. And everyone else sees this but that person. That has to be the case because otherwise this person is the scum of the earth. Which can’t be possible. Because after ALL you’ve done… they seem to give ZERO Fxcks. They DON’T respond to those endearing and caring texts, they DON’T ever contact you first, they DON’T invite you to hang out when they’re CLEARLY able to spend time with other people, they DON’T put any effort into you, and IF you were gone out of their life, they Wouldn’t. Even. CARE. It’s disgusting and frustrating and annoying. Like who TF does that?! Like who is that arrogant and evil?!?!?!

 

And the worst part is that you start to wonder “why me?” What’s wrong with me? What did I do wrong? I thought I wasn’t atrocious… I thought I had a great personality… I thought I was mature… and I just thought that I had a chance.

“Silly Kay, Trix are equivalent to men! They want perfection. And that’s not you. So you have 2 choices. CHANGE… AND FAST … or give up.”

And then, oh then, the worst part is when you believe they have a significant other. After they SPECIFICALLY told you they were focusing on getting their life together and weren’t ready for a relationship. And YOU BELIEVED IT!!!

 

So you get ticked off. Like I mean PISSED, with a capital PISS. And decide to give them space. Leave them alone. Then they wanna talk about how YOU actin shady?! Like ME?! MOFO you the one that done broke all the Ten Commandments (lying, stealing hearts, cheating, all them) and wanna just come back and act like we all good and fine and dandy. That’s not how it works!

 

So, no. 👎🏾 . Don’t talk to me. Don’t act like we all cheese and crackers because now we’re cheese and peanut butter. Like you’re getting in the way of my self care and you are so wishy washy and I can’t take it anymore!

… Like does anyone else get this way?! To the point where you’re done being nice? But that’s EXACTLY what’s wrong with the world is that no one cares or is nice anymore… so it’s like what are we supposed to do?!

Can I get a Witness?

Sincerely, Kay~

 

 

The Loooooong Awaited TOO FACED HAUL 😍

Hello lovelies!

Welp I’m too broke to give everyone $5… #struggleisreal so here I am on the day of my sisters graduation getting the TOO FACED haul/first impressions post up FINALLY! I haven’t used most of this stuff but the stuff I have used I’ll review as we go along.  

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This is the Chocolate Gold palette!! The entire reason I bought from Too Faced (the original chocolate bar just didn’t appeal to me to spend like $50. THIS sexy thing right here though… #hadtohaveit!) and it’s got so many pretty colors I can’t wait to experiment with!!

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Next up is White Peach! I am in awe of this palette I almost never wanna use it because it’s so GAWGUS. Honestly this one took my breath away online and I have barely touched it. The only time I’ve touched it was to do a couple swatches, that’s how pretty it is to me.  It’s so SPARKLY and gorgeous and smells wonderful and I love the names! The next makeup post will be swatches and a review on these gorgeous pigments. Def see myself loving this to no end. It’s already #mybaby! Smells amazing, colors are beautiful, and DEFINITELY my #weddingday palette hahaha!

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This one is so cute and it was actually a last minute decision! I’m in love with this Peanut Butter and Jelly palette. It’s small but scented and has soooooo many pretty colors! Ugh i just hope I don’t hit pan too soon. 

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Ahhhhh alas the infamous Sweet Peach palette. Not gonna lie I got this one being the basic/bad and boujee chick I am. But I’m pleasantly surprised from the swatches I did at the pigmentation and skin tone compatibility! I’m not a neutral eye person (lol shocker… not) but this is what I think is gonna help me do some more natural, wearable looks!

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This palette HANDS DOWN has the CUTEST packaging! It’s the Glitter Bomb palette. Haven’t really done anything with this one yet but I’m inspired for looks to come!

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Sorry for the quality! #Blurredlines

I REALLY did NOT need anyyyyymore lippies buuuuuuuttttttt I had to have them. In order the Melteds are named “Velvet, Ruby, Fuchsia, Dream House, and Macaron”. The Melted Latex are “Girl on Top” and “Unicorn Tears”. I also purchased “Bye Felicia” but kinda hated it… but that’s another story. I love Dream House (I knew I would, always wanted to be black Barbie) and Ruby is AMAZING too!

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I really only opened this Chocolate Gold bronzer, saw it wasn’t my shade, and closed it… may give it away to you wonderful followers!

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Last and tbh least. The Peach Frost highlighter (came messed up, I tried to smooth it over and above is the result 😂) and the Peach my Cheeks blush in “So Peachy”. I honestly tried to swatch both and couldn’t because the formulas are terrible… maybe I can melt down into a rose gold cream shadow?! 😂 

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Oh yeah and this is the sample hangover they sent me. Super small but I haven’t tried it yet so who knows?!

Alright Kaybies! That’s my haul! If you guys wanna see more in depth reviews on anything leave me a comment down below! White Peach is DEF gonna be reviewed though! Love y’all and stay FABULOUS!

Sincerely, Kay~

Ideas?

Hey Kaybies! 

Quick apology for not posting in forever! I’m actually sick right now and work has been kicking my butt. Nevertheless, I am so happy to see some more people on here… it gives me motivation to express myself even more. 

Soooooooooooo WE are gonna do an ice breaker! Sometimes I have ideas for posts but I want to be versatile. So I’m asking for your opinions. We’ll call the game “My 2 Sents.” (You’ll see why the spelling in a minute). 

Here are the rules!

1. Look at the 5 category tabs… like recipe or whichever.

2. You comment your name and your 2 “Sents” meaning 2 sentences of what you want me to post about, (get it? Ha, ha… ok let me stop) for whichever category (or even outside the category you choose and how often you’d like to see posts… once a day? A week? A year? To infinity and beyond?? 

3. Then I’ll collect the ideas and post them in a SCHEDULE!! 

That’s right y’all! I’m coming up with a schedule and y’all’s  ideas would help so I can post a little more frequently and you know what’s coming up.

⚠️ PSA! The makeup post is coming⚠️ We’re gonna do that this coming week and it’ll be more like a first impressions since half of it I haven’t opened. Pinky swear. If I don’t post it this week I owe everyone $5.

I’m so excited to see how this game works out! Love y’all!

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Of course it wouldn’t be a post from me without a meme haha

And congrats to all of you guys who just ended testing and school! This^ pic is done and over with!!

Sincerely, Kay~

Loneliness…

Hey Kaybies…

I know my posts are usually a little more chipper but I just needed to get this off my chest. Maybe my blog is the right place to do it, maybe it isn’t. I’m just feeling some type of way and wondered if y’all have ever felt it too.

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I. Am. Lonely.

Now some people say “why”? You have family and a therapist and friends and coworkers… why are you lonely?

While this may be the case, people don’t really get what that means. Yes, I have a family… but most days I feel like the black sheep. Yes, I have a therapist… but we only talk for 50 minutes, once a week. Yes, I have friends… but most of them are away at school or working  to where we rarely get to hang out. And yes, I have coworkers… but we rarely hang out outside of work and I’m amongst the youngest at the job so I get the sense that I annoy them sometimes.

I’ve been feeling this way for a while, so I went to a youth rally at church today and thought it could be a turning point… but my Dad’s old phrase came true,  “you can be in a crowd full of people… and still feel lonely”. And it sucks. You think you’re going to a crowded event, so there’s bound to be SOMEONE who wants to hang out and have a cool conversation… but no. They say hi, or maybe how are you… introduce themselves and move on. And I shed a couple tears today if I’m being blunt because I was hurt and lonely and to be frank, I feel like something is wrong with me… but that’s a whole nother story.

I just wonder if y’all ever feel (or have felt) the same way… tired of the fake smiles and small talk., and just looking for true companionship. Yes? No? Hate hearing me be upset? Idk… just thought I’d put it out there…

Sincerely, Kay~

 

Is It Really, Though?

Hey Kaybies! I can’t believe we’re already in April! Time flies!

Anywho, part one of my Too Faced haul will be up REALLY soon! I’ve been working a lot but haven’t forgot and I want it to be top quality for y’all!

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Everything I’m telling y’all about will be in my hauls but here’s a sneak peek

However today’s post is a question that I want y’all to give me feedback on. Like a straight up opinion because I wanna know how y’all feel.

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This always cracks me up but I need y’all to be this honest lol

Anyone who knows me knows I have a very strong affinity for men. And that I go through crushes like a roll of toilet paper. And usually I say “no THIS one is different”… and then the guy turns out to be a jerk, rude, not interested, taken, a piece of crap… or all 5 at the same time. However, there’s a particular cutie I’ve been asking close friends and family about. It’s a predicament (if you will) that I’m facing. And hopefully I’m not alone and some of you face it too. But I’ll speak about it in hypotheticals first.

So there is a girl. Let’s name her Kiara (I just watched Lion King 2 clips, don’t judge me). And she likes this Kovu guy (again, Lion King II).  He seems dedicated to his job, his passions, and his looks🤤. However, it’s rumored that Kovu is thinking of going to the military. Which puts Kiara on a time clock. Kiara wants to make a move, but he never seems to be alone so Kiara’s like “Bet, I’ll get his number”… but she has no idea how and she’s already embarrassed herself in front of him by doing a 180 spin when she saw him walking to the little lion’s room.

Now that’s the situation. Many of my family and friends say that it’s the man who should make the first move… but IS IT REALLY THOUGH?!  I mean I’m probably the most hopeless romantic you’ll ever meet. And in a perfect world, I’d flirt coyly and wait to be asked and then he’d ask me on a date and we’d get married and have beautiful babies… but this ain’t Heaven! This ain’t Hallmark… and it dang sure ain’t perfection. I feel as though this is the optimal situation, but sometimes you have to take the first steps. For heaven’s sake, I’m running out of eggs!

An excellent point was brought to me that the Bible says “he who findeth a wife, findeth a good thing” (Proverbs 18:22)… not SHE who finds a husband. Meaning I should wait on God to bring the good man to me. And this really is a tough point to argue with because I believe it. Butttttt all I’m trying to do is get the ball rolling for God… then he can do the rest how he wants. I’ve also been told, it’s the 21st century and I should “shoot my shot”… even though I keep tellin y’all I can’t shoot to save my life.

My question to you, my Kaybies, is “Is it ALWAYS the man’s job to ask first?” or more bluntly, “How should I go about asking this man for his number, if at all? (And helpful “hows” entail what to wear, a script with my lines highlighted in pink, etc.)

Please respond via leaving a comment below, Instagram (kinayabrown_), or Snapchat (listed in contact methods on page)! I thank you in advance for all advice!

I appreciate y’all reading once again, and can’t wait to hear from you!

Sincerely, Kay~

2 Sentence Update

Hey guys, I haven’t forgot about you in the least. Basically, I’m working on a huge haul and it’s taking really long (I’m trying to break it up and organize it too) as well as I have a lot going on in my personal life…so bear with me and you’ll see some more interesting stuff next week!

Sincerely, Kay~

Things Pull Apart…

Hey Kaybies,

I hope y’all’s week went well, and that everyone was safe this St. Patrick’s Day weekend.

So as you can see, not enough people sent in questions. In fact, I only got 2 more. So currently, I have about 7. And to be honest I was a little discouraged at first. For the sake of transparency, I’ll let y’all know I honestly felt like giving up on my whole blog because there’s not as much interaction as I’d like on here. But I’ve been discouraged and have quit on a lot of things. And this blog is special so I’m not giving it up just yet. Especially when I’ve got an exciting post like today’s!

So I know a lot of y’all are in college or single moms or just plain busy and I identify with that. Half the time you don’t have enough “me time” and most of the time meals are on the go. You try to look up a delicious recipe and it requires too many ingredients/appliances  you ain’t got time to get or just takes way too much effort (like who owns a double boiler in college?!) Well I’m pleased to announce my new recipe series! The goal is something simple and easy that’s still sophisticated and comforting/tasty!

This first recipe is a breakfast one, but can also double as a dessert. I first saw it on Tiphero.com Some people call it Monkey Bread, or Cinnamon Bites… I call it a Cinnamon-Pull-Apart! Cause you pull it apart lol. This recipe is honestly one of my favorites because it only requires 7 ingredients total and takes less than 30 minutes to make. I make it ahead of time on a day where I’m not SUPER busy and it’s great room temp or warm!

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Recipe adapted from Tiphero.com The finished product I made like 10 minutes ago

Things you’ll need:

1. A pan (square 9×9 is what I used but honestly you could use a disposable aluminum pan from the dollar store too)

2. Aluminum foil

3. Measuring spoons and cups (specifically 1/2 and 1 cup, and 1/2 tsp (teaspoon) and 1 tbsp (tablespoon).

4. Oven (to bake in)

5. Bowl for cinnamon sugar

Pull-Apart Ingredients:

1/2 cup brown sugar

1.5 teaspoons of cinnamon

1 can of refrigerated biscuits

1/4 cup melted butter

Glaze Ingredients:

1 cup powdered sugar

1 teaspoon vanilla

2 tablespoons of milk

Food Coloring (optional)

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Step one: make cinnamon sugar mix

So the first step is to preheat your oven to 350°. Line your pan with aluminum foil (TRUST ME, your cleanup will be SO much easier). Then mix the brown sugar and cinnamon. Not with a whisk or hand mixer, just a spoon or fork will do.

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Step 2: dough balls!

The next step is to take the biscuits out of the can and separate them. Cut each biscuit into fourths and mold each fourth into a ball shape.

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Step 3: roll in cinnamon sugar and place in pan

Then you’re gonna roll each ball in the cinnamon sugar mix we created in the first step. Place them side by side in your lined pan in a single layer. They will rise so they don’t have to be perfectly packed but you want them close together.

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Picture from Tip hero.com video since I didn’t take a pic of my pouring butter

After they’re all packed in pour the melted butter on top and pop in the oven for about 20-23 minutes.

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Voilaaaaa!

And Tah-da! This is what they should look like! But we aren’t finished yet! What’s a pull-apart without the icing??

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Put icing ingredients in a bag and shake for simplicity

The last step is to mix the powdered sugar, vanilla, optional food coloring and milk! I used white food color last time I made it for aesthetics, but usually any food coloring is just a fun ingredient to use. Now normally I mix it in a bowl and pour it over but I thought I would save y’all a dish and throw all the ingredients in a ziplock baggie and shake it all up… and honestly I think that’ll be my new method. It saves on clean up since you just throw the bag away when done but most importantly it gives a more even distribution of icing. So just cut the corner off and zig zag away! And you’re done! Here’s tomorrow’s breakfast or dessert!

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Presenting the final product!

I hope someone finds this helpful! It tastes amazing and is so simple! Still send in those Q and A questions… I’d appreciate it. And if you try this, tag me in your post/ comment below!!

Sincerely, Kay~

Wait What? Q&A? And Status Update!

So I’ll make this post brief but I wanted to hop on here and apologize to y’all for not posting in so long. Not gonna make excuses. Just wanted to let y’all know I got you and I am not dead.

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A perfect meme that describes my life EXACTLY so I thought I’d share with y’all lol

Now I’ve been wanting to do a “getting to know you Q&A” post for a while and honestly I appreciate those who sent in questions but at this point I only have 5. I would like to have at least 20-25. They will all be anonymous so either send through my contact page or via social media, because I REALLY want to get this up for you guys! If we hit at least 20 questions by Friday, the post will be up by Saturday! I appreciate those who are reading! If you appreciate my work, tell your friends! I love networking and people in general! Send in those questions via contact page on here, via snap, or Instagram! Love y’all!

Sincerely, Kay~

Top 20 Playlist: Pick me up!

What’s up Kaybies? I want to apologize for taking a week to write my next post! A whole bunch of crap happened (especially today was some #BULL)… But if you’ve ever studied DBT (Dialectical Behavioral Therapy) then you know there’s a skill called “opposite action”. Opposite action is literally self explanatory. You do the opposite action of the unhelpful thing you want to do. For instance,  I would LOVE to lay in bed all day and sleep… and you bet your smoked Gouda I could do it too. BUT opposite action is intentionally getting up every morning and going to work and socializing with these annoying yet interesting creatures called people. And that’s what I’m doing right now.

So this post was inspired by my desk buddy/amazing coworker. Her name is Nel Belle 🦋 (at least that’s what I call her and yes, she’s as pretty as she sounds). After having a day full of bull, we talked about blog topics (amongst other things) and she suggested writing a playlist. I sure as hell needed some pick me up music that I’m actually listening to as I write. I’m going to be honest, my taste in music is all over the place so hopefully everyone finds a few songs (⚠️disclaimer: YES there will be trap music, YES I will link the clean version). I try not to listen to love songs when I need a pick me up because they just remind me of how alone I am lol.  So without further ado, let’s get into it!

20. Weightless- All Time Low

I know this doesn’t SOUND like a pick me up song from the title and honestly I listen to this song when I’m upset too. But trust me, just dance around the room like a 2 year old and don’t listen to the words too much. Except my favorite line, “maybe it’s not my weekend, but it’s gonna be my year”. Listen to that and embed it in your brain.

19. Energy- Drake

*no clean version of this song on YT but def recommend *

Because I do have enemies. Got a lotta enemies tryna drain me of my energy! Just can’t let them 😏

18. Best I Ever Had- Drake

I just feel like my baby is singing to me in this song… plus I am the best anyone has ever had. Fake friends, guys, and all others who don’t realize that are just stupid. #sorrynotsorry #Kaybymentality

17. Snap Yo Fingers- Lil John and the East Side Boyz

Because sometimes you just need to do your step, and know that YOU can do it ALL by YO SELF!!

16. Money Baby- K Camp ft. Kwony Cash

DEFINITELY make sure if you’re under 18 you’ve got the clean version. But this song is just care free and while I do almost NONE of the activities mentioned by K camp, I do like that money, Kayby!

15. Here’s to Never Growing Up- Avril Lavigne 

Again I like variety, and this song just has that 90’s kid vibe and really… we’re never gonna change!

14. Buzzin- Mann

This song is the epitome of pick-you-up-no-matter-what-mood-you’re-in AND is just so fun to dance to and is probably in my top 10 favorite songs of all time *cue my sister doing the Kevin Alston from The Bomb Digz dance*

13. Got Money- Lil Wayne and T-peezy (T-Pain y’all)

One of the reasons why Lil Wayne is ONE OF the best rappers of all time (fight me if you don’t agree) is not only because he changed the game for our generation, but because he LITERALLY doesn’t give one F about what people say… And TBH that’s how I get a pick me up. I listen to people who don’t care about what others think, and I start doing the same (I make it snow, I make it flurry…I make it all back tomorrow don’t worry! – Weezy)

12. Feeling Myself- Nicki Minaj ft. Yoncé

Just because this song is all abut feeling yourself and dismissing all of those irrelevant to my life (these Chanel bags is a bad habit… but male or female it make no difference I stop the world… carry on 😘)

11.  Everyday We Lit- YFN Lucci ft. PnB Rock

Because we truly should find a reason to be lit everyday🌖 (I swear I ain’t never expected it like this, now I’m getting rich, that’s why everyday we lit… you can’t tell me ISH!!)

10. Get Low- Lil John & the East Side Boyz

If you can’t twerk and get DOWN to this song and make your problems go away, at least for a minute… we need to talk. To the windoooooooooooooooow, to the wall! To all, skeet skeet!

9. Blame It- Jamie Foxx and T-Pain

Although I’ve never drunk alcohol, this song has one of my favorite empowering verses and my favorite auto tunes EVER. To my independent mamas who can buy their own bottles, if you lookin like a MODEL when the broke fellas holler tell em BYE (and if that’s your case… you’re definitely a Kayby)!

8. Bad and Boujee- Migos ft. Lil Uzi Vert

You know… young rich people… you know sum we ain’t never really had no old money… we got a WHOLE LOTTA new money though… RAINDROP!!! (Now y’all KNOW it wouldn’t be a post from me without a Migos reference)

7. Before I Let Go- Maze ft. Frankie Beverly

You make me happy… this you can bet… swear oml this song is in my top 3 favorite family reunion/cookout/ wedding/you better know this songs. Just listen to it and I dare you not to smile or tap your foot.

6. Bounce Back- Big Sean

DEFINITELY a great reset song  for the morning. Last night took an L, but tonight I bounce BACK! Like you can’t HELP but me uplifted by this song #IwokeupinBEASTMODE

5. FDB- Young Dro

This song has gotten me through many bad days… can’t quote much but it’s great if you’re frustrated and just need to scream FDB about something (or someone 😒)

4. Pull Up Wit a Stick- SahBabii ft. Loso Loaded

This was probably my second favorite song of 2017… just so upbeat… no real meaning… just relaxing with a bunch of brrrr brrrrts!

3. First Day Out- Tee Grizzley

My ABSOLUTE favorite song of 2017… it’s so deep and just reminds me anything is possible and that people struggle a lot more than I remember sometimes… Especially my people (“Just bury me in the water with my ancestors… They knew death was better than bondage”) #WAKANDAFOREVER. You ever went to trial and fought for your life? BUT WHEN THAT BEAT DROPPPPPPS!!

2. God’s Plan- Drake

I am pretty speechless when it comes to God’s Plan. I just feel such a connection to the lyrics in this song, and I just feel like this song is so fire… it would be a crime to not include it… Drake mixtapes are lifeeeeee!

1! Where Everybody Knows Your Name- Gary Portnay

This song is a personal favorite, since it’s the theme song to my favorite TV show ever created!! It always cheers me up and sometimes you really just wanna go where everybody knows your name 😍.

Well y’all… it’s late… but let’s make it through this next week of finding new jobs, dealing with significant others, putting up with the Crazies, and all the hammers life tries to throw at us! Love you!!!

Sincerely, Kay~